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There is a saying 'watching the clouds go by'...I've always imagined lying on a bed of grass, probably at a 45 degree angle hill. chewing freshly pulled weed (no, not that kind...back, mind, return back!). The winds are strong and cooling 2day. It must be raining somewhere and the wind just picked up its coolness and dampness. So, winds pick up what they pass thru huh, just like us. Was just thinking about the 18yr old girl who jumped of her condo building. Her mum said she accidentally fell off, but the cousin said her mum abused her mentally for many2 yrs. Her dad has a new wife and son in the UK, she is the eldest of 4 kids, taken custody by her mum in KL. Smart kid with good grades. Her mum must've hated her, and I reckon its bcoz she is reminded of her ex husband. Eldest daughters have a tendency to look or act like their dads, as eldest sons have tendencies to look/act like their mum. R.I.P. to the poor girl, wished she had taken another way out, like leave her house and make a living somehow. The 'me' 20yrs ago did.

The clouds are moving again. Come to think of it, it doesn't really stop. We just think it do. Our minds doesn't really stop either. We just divert from one thing to another till we don't know what is important anymore.

Well, back to hitting the books. This entry has no meaning whatsoever. Just a record of an exceptionally blustery windy day (I hv diverted to Winnie the Pooh and his red balloon now). じゃね。後３日だよ！

Feels very sad.... can't remember how many times I cried 2day, But somehow, even b4 it happened, I knew... my witch's 6th sense? Juz overcame with extreme sadness and I juz knew. It has happened b4 so nanka, konkai wa bikkurishinai de, kitsuite. Kyo wa, nani mo dekinai. Shukudai to kanji ga takusan arushi kedo ichi mai mo dekinakatta. Uchi no housework mo ippai shi... demo.... mada ugokanai! Kotae ga aru shi, sore de, moshi ojisan ga irun mo onaji kangeru "Yukkuri de, jinsei wa. Imi ga nai moshi fkei ga mienai". Hontouni my pace na hito, warau ga suki nan desu ga nakanaka 'luck' wa nai shi. Business to kekkon mo shippai shi, tsuri to tabemono dake ga suki, kodomo wa isshoni no toki itsumo warau, tanoshikatta omoidasu. Hope he has a better life next round ne. R.I. P. Siew Pooi Wing. I'll nvr forget ur kindness!

Sugoku urayameshii kedo... Sabishii yo! Maa ii na? Jibun de shinjiru, isshokenmei benkyou bakkari dake ga dekiru.

Atashi no jinsei wa, dou?? What the hell do I plan to do with my life? 2day I'm juz supposed to re-write my N3 notes.. but I only managed ONE page... and its 8pm now. And I wanted to design malaysia no arashi's charity t-shirt, tho I hv ideas but no idea where to start. Wanted to much to NOT sleep 2nite but wondering if I can survive Loo sensei's cls 2moro nite (kowaii)! Supposed to NOT eat so much too, but am craving for sushi now and I juz had japanese food in the afternoon. To say that I hv lots on my mind, that is not true too... I hv bought stationaries, done my chores, bought bday dress, bought bday present for self (a dolphin pillow/soft toy albeit nameless rite now); the only things left this week is to pay Telekom bill, get back my Kame pendant from the jeweler, get back my dry cleaning. That's it. So this wk juz gotta study. Read and absorb. And that oso I can't do. What abt all the things I wanna do? Calligraphy? Memorize dance steps? Write songs? B very flexible from yoga? B very very good in translation? When can I do them? This pic is how I feel now... lonely, lost...

My cousins in the pic... they look like chibi Nino and chibi Ohno. No joke! Anyways rite now am very glad I hv new laptop bcoz my pc really dying on me. And somehow 2day my internet is doing the same thing too! So so happy 2day. Did homework, went gym, collected photcopied books, watched DVD and now, albeit SLOWLY, but surely getting onto the net.

Ok done. Pls stay connected till after I upload this!

LOVE this pic! Actually nikki is for Sat. Bought Dell laptop, yaaargh, ureshikattan desu! Arigatou Syiena-chan, jd drebar for the day! Watched too much DVDs and bangumis recently. Demo nihongo wa, sub mienai mou ii desu, yokatta! Ashita wa Loo sensei ga aimasu, chotto kowaii desu kedo, shokanai desu yo ne (itsumo kotoba ga wasurechatta...). Hope he'll take us in and make us better. Oh, love Chg Ur World's DVD but still miz Jin!

Didn't take results yet. Ah well. BTW this is unrelated but miz Jin so so much in Kattun. Am listening to D-Motion and I know he is in there, but they made it sound so distorted juz bcoz he's supposed 2b gone from d group for the NMP cd. Sigh. Luckily I bought d single, er its Love Yourself's single but D-Motion is in it too, kinda defeats the name'single' meaning one song... hitotsu, futatsu ja nai! Sigh.. guess ppl in Johnny's need to brush on their eigo. But it has PV of D-Motion, so so happy. Oh, juz realised I'm better at recognising Kattun member's voice than Arashi (hontoni gomen nasai!) Hhmm, gotta start revising... been saying i for the whole day but felt suffocated so far so hv not been doing anything productive. Houseworks r not productive for me at all.

Ohayou (yes I know its 1130)... dah bgn since 8am and dah breakfast ngan lunch dah... went for Ajinomoto's cooking cls yesterday. Oishikattan desu! Ureshii! Made lamb curry, veggies, yam abascus (mochi la tu) ngan tgk je sensei wat cendol sb tak ckp time.... but time free lunch tu ade dessert cendol yg sensei wat lah... free cls! Will go again next mth!

Made appointment for Loo sensei raishuu no nichi-youbi gogo 3ji. Must remember to go for it!

Watched DVD the whole half day after cls yesterday... demo b4 cls went date-o wif husbd who likes the food we cooked (mou ichido arigatou Barbara-san to Lydia-san yg masak semlm). Date-o pun lunch je, order nasi ayam and makan with the food yg pack from cooking cls. Anyways, back to my DVD... ade new player (yg wif screen and portable, sukunai je tp sound system damn bergegar), and I watch till asa 1ji han! Mostly bangumi wif Kindaichi and Gokusen and Kurosagi.

Ok, enuff... nak benkyou. Yes, Jun dtg lg mimpi ngan rambut Domyouji (yuck). Gi tgk die rehersal. Somehow ade Shun yg chain smoking wif his left hand non-stop. Muka die masam je, not muka Ryui Hanadan, even scarier Genji Crows Zero or Sano Hanakimi. Masam yg his true self, the dun-come-near-me muka. Agaknyer marah I still tak bli Fullmetal alchemist nyer series ori kot? Or jeles I drool Ridaa nyer kaki sotong??

Kyo gi library... but mcm tak productive. Dshite jikan ga nai? Hhmm, ntah cane Kame celebrated his birthday... wish I was there to 'kill' him softly...