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There is a saying 'watching the clouds go by'...I've always imagined lying on a bed of grass, probably at a 45 degree angle hill. chewing freshly pulled weed (no, not that kind...back, mind, return back!). The winds are strong and cooling 2day. It must be raining somewhere and the wind just picked up its coolness and dampness. So, winds pick up what they pass thru huh, just like us. Was just thinking about the 18yr old girl who jumped of her condo building. Her mum said she accidentally fell off, but the cousin said her mum abused her mentally for many2 yrs. Her dad has a new wife and son in the UK, she is the eldest of 4 kids, taken custody by her mum in KL. Smart kid with good grades. Her mum must've hated her, and I reckon its bcoz she is reminded of her ex husband. Eldest daughters have a tendency to look or act like their dads, as eldest sons have tendencies to look/act like their mum. R.I.P. to the poor girl, wished she had taken another way out, like leave her house and make a living somehow. The 'me' 20yrs ago did.

The clouds are moving again. Come to think of it, it doesn't really stop. We just think it do. Our minds doesn't really stop either. We just divert from one thing to another till we don't know what is important anymore.

Well, back to hitting the books. This entry has no meaning whatsoever. Just a record of an exceptionally blustery windy day (I hv diverted to Winnie the Pooh and his red balloon now). じゃね。後3日だよ!
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Feels very sad.... can't remember how many times I cried 2day, But somehow, even b4 it happened, I knew... my witch's 6th sense? Juz overcame with extreme sadness and I juz knew. It has happened b4 so nanka, konkai wa bikkurishinai de, kitsuite. Kyo wa, nani mo dekinai. Shukudai to kanji ga takusan arushi kedo ichi mai mo dekinakatta. Uchi no housework mo ippai shi... demo.... mada ugokanai! Kotae ga aru shi, sore de, moshi ojisan ga irun mo onaji kangeru "Yukkuri de, jinsei wa. Imi ga nai moshi fkei ga mienai". Hontouni my pace na hito, warau ga suki nan desu ga nakanaka 'luck' wa nai shi. Business to kekkon mo shippai shi, tsuri to tabemono dake ga suki, kodomo wa isshoni no toki itsumo warau, tanoshikatta omoidasu. Hope he has a better life next round ne. R.I. P. Siew Pooi Wing. I'll nvr forget ur kindness!
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When I was young I've been told dat I'm lazy, bcoz I alwiz did things 'my pace'. Nw dat I'm grown up,
I juz didn't believe dat they r ppl who does nothing at all! And they claim they r tired, after dooing nothing!
They slept for 3hrs, then after waking up wif much difficulty tho they insisted I wake them after an hour, they
Watch tv for 3 hrs, read book for one hour then slept frm 230-730am. Isn't dat 8hrs and they get
Grumpy and complain they wanna sleep but can't bcoz I keep waking them. Do they realise I only cld study for 1hr
Bcoz d rest of d time I had to wake them, so much so dat I might as well sleep and had proper sleep for 3hrs.
D rest of d time am tossing and turning, n my frens kept askg y am I still coughing or y haven't I studied more?

Dear God, pls let me hv someone faithful and hardworking. 8hrs of sleep is still nt enuff, then I dunno where I can go wif this sort of person
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Sugoku urayameshii kedo... Sabishii yo! Maa ii na? Jibun de shinjiru, isshokenmei benkyou bakkari dake ga dekiru.

Nikki

Mar. 23rd, 2011 02:57 am
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Ooo, this song is so appropriate! Love the almost hentai clips tho it doesn't hv any nudity. Did my eyebrows, itai! Demo okane ano hito dakara ii desu ne? Tsumaranai. Itsumo onaji complain... Ima mada kaeranai... Sigh. But I'm so proud of myself bcoz I dun care anymore and was studying and reading dictionary (as 'requested' by Sho-kun inmy dreams, TWICE, crazy KEIO-guy) and gonna watch H no Arashi-chan after logging out. Hhmm, still dunno my internet password so my laptop is kinda uselss at home right now. Am missing Kame, he's not in my dreams these days... hhmm, luckily there r otr ikemen(s) out there or I wld've been bored to death! But I heard japanese housewives hv young boy toys while their husbds go to work, where on earth do they find them?? Ah nemui... jaa ne


Nikki

Mar. 15th, 2011 09:20 pm
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Atashi no jinsei wa, dou?? What the hell do I plan to do with my life? 2day I'm juz supposed to re-write my N3 notes.. but I only managed ONE page... and its 8pm now. And I wanted to design malaysia no arashi's charity t-shirt, tho I hv ideas but no idea where to start. Wanted to much to NOT sleep 2nite but wondering if I can survive Loo sensei's cls 2moro nite (kowaii)! Supposed to NOT eat so much too, but am craving for sushi now and I juz had japanese food in the afternoon. To say that I hv lots on my mind, that is not true too... I hv bought stationaries, done my chores, bought bday dress, bought bday present for self (a dolphin pillow/soft toy albeit nameless rite now); the only things left this week is to pay Telekom bill, get back my Kame pendant from the jeweler, get back my dry cleaning. That's it. So this wk juz gotta study. Read and absorb. And that oso I can't do. What abt all the things I wanna do? Calligraphy? Memorize dance steps? Write songs? B very flexible from yoga? B very very good in translation? When can I do them? This pic is how I feel now... lonely, lost...

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Really dun c what the big deal. Study the birds in their natural habitat, create a fake house for them, mimicking their habitat and voila! Wait for them to come and u collect their saliva then exchange it for cash. Yes, I know it costs next to nothing other than the initial renovations and for now, no licenses (yet) but wait lah... anything that untung a bit will invite 'enforcers' to take a large chunk outta ur purse. For now 3 'houses' r ready (actually its shop lots, bought the 2nd storey and made it into that)... dunno lah. Feel bad if I'm making use of them bird brained birds. Ah well, as long as no birds were actually harmed, I'm ok for it! Hope the money (if any) received dun invite the 7 sins into our lives...

Nikki

Mar. 10th, 2011 12:37 am
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My cousins in the pic... they look like chibi Nino and chibi Ohno. No joke! Anyways rite now am very glad I hv new laptop bcoz my pc really dying on me. And somehow 2day my internet is doing the same thing too! So so happy 2day. Did homework, went gym, collected photcopied books, watched DVD and now, albeit SLOWLY, but surely getting onto the net.

Ok done. Pls stay connected till after I upload this!

nikki

Mar. 6th, 2011 10:29 pm
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I really like Kame... what else is new? Oohh forgot my internet password so hv problem connecting my laptop to my existing network connection :-) yes no one's fault but mind. Will update nikki again if I hv more to say 2day... too many clses to attend, so really panicky now

Nikki

Mar. 6th, 2011 01:42 am
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LOVE this pic! Actually nikki is for Sat. Bought Dell laptop, yaaargh, ureshikattan desu! Arigatou Syiena-chan, jd drebar for the day! Watched too much DVDs and bangumis recently. Demo nihongo wa, sub mienai mou ii desu, yokatta! Ashita wa Loo sensei ga aimasu, chotto kowaii desu kedo, shokanai desu yo ne (itsumo kotoba ga wasurechatta...). Hope he'll take us in and make us better. Oh, love Chg Ur World's DVD but still miz Jin!

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Mar. 3rd, 2011 11:30 pm
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Y Jun's pic? Bcoz semlm die masuk mimpi... yes husbd tak perasan pun I pass exams. So I nangis and tido... and Jun wat shokuji for me. Ikat rambut jenis Jin (full, not half like he normally do) tp rambut dah pendek kot? Pakai baju and sweat pants grey color. Tak senyum tp at least tak marah... d kitchen is blk and wht colors only. I remember being so touched and tanyer die "Can I hug u", die reply yada. Sigh. Then of coz I dah pegang chopsticks and itadakimasu... he mcm shock cepat bole tukar emotion... sigh, die still tak paham tabemono yori houka no mono daisetsu ne? Can't remember anything else.

Nikki

Mar. 1st, 2011 10:49 pm
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Didn't take results yet. Ah well. BTW this is unrelated but miz Jin so so much in Kattun. Am listening to D-Motion and I know he is in there, but they made it sound so distorted juz bcoz he's supposed 2b gone from d group for the NMP cd. Sigh. Luckily I bought d single, er its Love Yourself's single but D-Motion is in it too, kinda defeats the name'single' meaning one song... hitotsu, futatsu ja nai! Sigh.. guess ppl in Johnny's need to brush on their eigo. But it has PV of D-Motion, so so happy. Oh, juz realised I'm better at recognising Kattun member's voice than Arashi (hontoni gomen nasai!) Hhmm, gotta start revising... been saying i for the whole day but felt suffocated so far so hv not been doing anything productive. Houseworks r not productive for me at all.


Nikki

Feb. 28th, 2011 02:24 pm
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Got up at 530am, again at 7am... gotta send off some ppl to work then went back to snooze mode till phone rang at 11am. Asked for my passport details. Supposed to going to Chengdue, China Apr 2-8th. Someone's annual company trip. Me praying someone dun come along and spoil the 2 person time but that someone may take this opportunity to go. If she goes, I'm not going! Then went to send clothes for ironing, retrieved photocopied book, bought lunch, ate lunch while watching Gokusen wif Jun... I must leave the hse by 530pm later to collect Org Range's CD then cls, then home again. Must MUST study lots and exercise lots b4 Apr 1st then. Dunno y but I'm nervous. Not bcoz of inability to adapt but worry I like it so much I dun wanna come back! Ah well, gotta revise a bit after shower then read that Da Vinci book. Jaa mata.

Nikki

Feb. 27th, 2011 11:48 am
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Ohayou (yes I know its 1130)... dah bgn since 8am and dah breakfast ngan lunch dah... went for Ajinomoto's cooking cls yesterday. Oishikattan desu! Ureshii! Made lamb curry, veggies, yam abascus (mochi la tu) ngan tgk je sensei wat cendol sb tak ckp time.... but time free lunch tu ade dessert cendol yg sensei wat lah... free cls! Will go again next mth!

Made appointment for Loo sensei raishuu no nichi-youbi gogo 3ji. Must remember to go for it!

Watched DVD the whole half day after cls yesterday... demo b4 cls went date-o wif husbd who likes the food we cooked (mou ichido arigatou Barbara-san to Lydia-san yg masak semlm). Date-o pun lunch je, order nasi ayam and makan with the food yg pack from cooking cls. Anyways, back to my DVD... ade new player (yg wif screen and portable, sukunai je tp sound system damn bergegar), and I watch till asa 1ji han! Mostly bangumi wif Kindaichi and Gokusen and Kurosagi.

Ok, enuff... nak benkyou. Yes, Jun dtg lg mimpi ngan rambut Domyouji (yuck). Gi tgk die rehersal. Somehow ade Shun yg chain smoking wif his left hand non-stop. Muka die masam je, not muka Ryui Hanadan, even scarier Genji Crows Zero or Sano Hanakimi. Masam yg his true self, the dun-come-near-me muka. Agaknyer marah I still tak bli Fullmetal alchemist nyer series ori kot? Or jeles I drool Ridaa nyer kaki sotong??

Nikki

Feb. 26th, 2011 01:05 am
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Bought new DVD player with screen attached! Yup, am becoming more and more stupid bcoz of too much tv :-) am happy tho. Juz finished nihongo no kurasu. Juz found out Pi-chan no kanojo wa furansu-jin desu. Sigh. Ah well, cooking cls 2moro morning.... hope I dun burn the plc down.... Oyasumi!

Nikki

Feb. 24th, 2011 01:21 am
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Kyo gi library... but mcm tak productive. Dshite jikan ga nai? Hhmm, ntah cane Kame celebrated his birthday... wish I was there to 'kill' him softly...
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Happy Birthday! May you have all your wishes come true and hope you will find happiness always.
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